Today has been somewhat depressing and I don't really even know why. Do you ever get in one of those feel sorry for yourself moods for no real reason? I know we all do. That is why I'm not going to feel so bad about it. I know the same as most all of you do, that life is just hard. Even though I am blessed beyond words, sometimes just the day to day struggles can get you down.
I had a day like most others; got up, fixed breakfast, spent time with my kids, cleaned the house, ran errands in town and then went to the high school basketball game. The problem is, I am thinking the entire time I am doing any of the above about what I can do to move forward.
I am an impatient person. I expect everything to just happen right away. The sensible part of me knows that "all good things come to those who wait" but the other part screams, "make it happen, NOW!" I just tend to get aggravated when road blocks seem to pop up.
The kids go back to school tomorrow (finally) so maybe I can get a few phone calls made that really need to be made. Maybe I can feel like tomorrow has been productive this time tomorrow night. If not, is it really the end of the world?
It's the typical winter blues- I hit them every year. I feel so much better when I can just go out on the porch of the evenings and listen to the crickets when I feel a bit overwhelmed. I feel better about myself when I can peel all the layers of clothes off and feel air on my skin or let my hair down without it sticking out at all ends from static. (I hate that)
Until the weather warms a bit and my mood changes to "sunny", I will continue to remind myself of all the blessings in my life. My beautiful, healthy kids and husband, a nice warm bed to sleep in and a full gut (often too full). I challenge all of you to do the same. Together, we can lean on one another until we have some fantastic news to share; and I know that will come because I am going to make it happen. My goal is to open my own paper within the next six weeks. That impatient Becky is hard to put a lid on; so let's bet she makes it happen!