Ending today, prepared for tomorrow

As I sit here sipping my coffee and pondering over what to write about, I realize that another day has gone by.

I am one of those type of people that feels a need to do something productive with each day. In the week since I left my job, this has been the hardest part for me. Don't get me wrong, I love being at home and I have actually had the time to get a lot of things done around here that I haven't been able to do in a very long time. I mean, in an ordinary day while I was working, I would manage to go to work, pick up my kids, run to practice or a game with my kids and then fly home, cook dinner, help my daughter with homework, manage a load of laundry, then collapse into bed about midnight to get up the next morning and do it all over again. I never had the time to do things like wash the curtains or knock down the cob webs (how embarassing to discover how many there actually were). This week, I managed both those things and I probably would have gotten even more done but my kids were out of school the end of the week due to snow.

In fact, I believe being a stay at home mom and housewife is the hardest and most thankless job in the world. It is hard to feel like a maid and caregiver all the time and not a whole lot more. It is difficult to be at home battling those cobwebs and scrubbing the tub and all the while, feeling like the rest of the world is moving along without you.

My household has always been a two income household. My husband tells me constantly not to worry, let him be the only wage earner in our home and we will manage but still, there is a part of me that feels like I am letting my family down if suddenly we have to pinch pennies and maybe not go to that movie on Friday night because Mom didn't get to work this week.

Today though, I moved a step closer to what I feel is the best solution for me, my family and my community in general. I took one step closer to my goal of owning my own newspaper. If plans go as my husband and I hope, it will be a reality in the very near future.

In the meantime, I will continue to pray that this decision is the best one. I will pray for the Lord's guidance in every step we take. Starting Monday, I will start my day with a prayer, take my kids to school (if they have it), come home and knock down those pesky cob webs and move forward with my goal. If I have an extra minute, I may even get the whim to dust at least some of the furniture. : )